Ever had those days where you wake up to another crappy day of your life?  Lately, I’ve been waking up like that a lot.  The first thing that goes on in my mind would be, “*sighs*” there u go again. And to make matters worst, everything would go wrong.  Everything seems to be wrong and out of my control.  And everything really starts to piss me off. I will get headache and stomach ache. No matter how hard I try and everything I do would be wrong.  I’m always refused to talk to anyone nowadays, I’m so sick of it. I’m getting tired of my everyday life style.  It’s so depressing.  After all the headache and the bitching from everything, half of my day is spent doing my ordinary-not-so-interesting job.  Maybe that’s why I hate waking up nowadays.  This is all I wake up to.  I don’t have anything to look forward to anymore… *sighs*.  Sitting in my room, in front of my lappy makes me more depressed. Sometimes I wonder, why all this happened to me? Why I need to go through all this again? I can’t cry anymore, I can’t swear all the time I’m mad. I don’t want to say bad words in front of the kids. It’s bad! Thank God I have them around. They cheer me up at least. Their smile, their laugh makes me happy. If only I can be happy like them. Nothing to worry about, nothing to think about and all they do is playing and laughing. *Sigh* I hate being at home lately. I feel lost easier when I’m alone. And that thing came across my mind again and again. That’s not my fault… what can I do if everything happen not like what I want. At first, I hope everything gonna be fine. But after awhile, after every this and that, I’ve decided to make a move. But it’s still like that. And the silence killing me. Sometimes silence says a lot. I’m tired trying. I’m tired of everything. Finally.. I decided to make a decision for my own good. I can’t keep waiting anymore…

Strawberry Chocolate Cheesecake ( 18cm )

• Filling 
• 250g Soft Cheese - Room Temp.
• 3 eggs
• 200ml sour cream
• 200ml fresh/whipping cream
• 120gm castor sugar
• 2 tbs corn starch
• Vanilla Essence
• Base
• 1 1/2 cups rich tea / digestive biscuits crumbs (or any biscuit you like)
• 50g butter (melted)
• 1 tbs brown sugar 
• Topping
• Fresh Strawberry
  
• Chocolate Dip (Cooking Chocolate-double boil)
  

Method

• MIX crumbs, brown sugar and butter; press onto bottom of 18cm springform pan. Bake for 10 minutes

• BEAT cream cheese, castor sugar, vanilla essence with electric mixer on medium speed until well blended. Add sour creams, eggs, 1 at a time and corn starch, mixing on low speed after each addition just until blended. Blend in remaining ingredients, pour over crust. Gently stir in some chocolate before bake.

• BAKE at 200'C for 30 min in water bath and low down the oven temp to 160'C, cover the cake with alumunium foil and bake for another 30 min. Run knife or metal spatula around rim of pan to loosen cake; cool before removing rim of pan. Refrigerate 4 hours or overnight.

• Avoid Cracked Cheesecakes: After adding the eggs, be careful not to overbeat the batter since this can cause the baked cheesecake to crack.

Method

1. In a medium glass bowl, prepare marinade by mixing garlic, olive oil, oregano, salt, pepper and lemon juice.
   
2. Place salmon fillets in a medium glass baking dish, and cover with the marinade.
3. Marinate in the refrigerator about 1 hour, turning occasionally.
4. Preheat oven to 375 degrees F (190 degrees C).
5. Place fillets in aluminum foil, cover with marinade, and seal.
6. Place sealed salmon in the glass dish, and bake 35 to 45 minutes, until easily flaked with a fork.

1. WHITE SAUCE : In a saucepan, melt butter. Saute chopped onion until soft. Stir in flour, mixed. Gradually add milk. Bring to a boil; cook and stir for 2 minutes or until thickened. Season with pepper and salt. Add dried mixed herb when serve.

Too lazy to write the recipe. I will share it next time.

This cheeky little girl turn 2 yesterday. Baked Vanilla Cheesecake with Dikda for her birthday. Im glad when Dikda told me shes so happy and like the cake. Cake pic and random pic when shes singing with her mommy.

I woke up this morning and there was a pretty fresh white snow on the ground. What a beautiful view i have from my bedroom window. I hate the cold but i love snow so much. Since the 1st year here, i wish i can play snowball and make snowman with someone. But too bad it did not happen before. Today is my lucky day, and guess what? Its snowy all day until the moment i wrote this little note. How lovely!! I cant wait for tommorow to take somemore pictures. Its so nice to touch and feel the fluffy snow. The sound of my foot step on the ground make me feel gud. I didnt know why im so happy but i dunt care because i am happy indeed. Im busy telling my frens and family about it today. So wow!!! Someone got jealous~ hehehe.. :P I will upload more new pics later. Happy Mode!!! *Smiling*